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"Holy Spirit, help me"


Hey Sisters,

Sometimes ago, I shared with a group of teenagers on anger management and I will like to do same with you today.

Few years ago, I found myself in a very terrible situation I did not handle maturely, and as a result, I embarrassed and gave a very wrong image of myself. Now, I am not trying to please others, but I really value my image and name. I said so many terrible words, got really violent and wasn’t taking any chill pill at all because I felt cheated. In fact, people around me kept wondering what version of me was displaying before them. I couldn’t even coordinate myself, I was just going to let out my emotions without thinking of a better way to resolve the situation.

After that incidence, I ran back to God asking Him to help my emotions and help me never to have a physical replay of that day, ever again.

Overtime, I have learnt one trick, no matter how hurt or angered I am at someone or something, I am never going to speak immediately. So, I keep muttering this words, “Holy Spirit, help me”. I keep repeating these words till I am able to actually control myself. I tell you, this has really worked for me several times.

Something happened again earlier this month and I was going to lose it. I could feel the words up my throat already. I could literally feel my head swelling like I had been poured yeast and left for days. My body was beginning to vibrate, I was going to act ‘mad’ again because, this was even worse than my experience the other year.

It was such a hurting scenario that someone close to me advised I went to a cinema, had popcorn and a chilled Pepsi drink (lol). Of a truth, it was glaring the other party was 100% at fault and really did terrible. But I had learnt the hard way (from my past experience) and wasn’t going to get myself ashamed again. I had also learnt to control myself and most especially my mouth. I had learnt to allow the Holy Spirit guard my emotions and be behaved even in anger. I could literally feel the Holy Spirit restraining my actions and helping me swallow those words. After a while, I was calm. A few days later, the Holy Spirit gave the opportunity to express myself, and this time, I was able to do so calmly without hurtful words. Even with very few words, the other party realized the fault.

In summary, the only way you can have your emotions well tucked is by having help from the Holy Spirit. You can’t do it alone, the more you try, the more you keep falling, having so much regrets and pains. The more you realize you aren’t gonna get it right. But, consciously give it all to Him. asides from the truth that He helps you take back those hurtful words and actions, and handling the situation much better, He helps you heal such that the pains the other party has caused is of no or little effect.


Love Always,
Your Sis



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